William's Corner

A knight with shining armor approaching the castle
A flurry of arrows appeared and came flying at the knight.
The knight defended the arrows with its shield.
A small number of arrows pierced his body and yet he still kept on going.
When he reached to the bridge near the castle.
A flaming arrow pierced through his shield and the knight got shot in the heart.
He then got killed by the arrow :)

Well. It's holiday time now and it passed. For everyone is a week of happiness. For me is happiness and sadness. I really screwed up my whole week and also school life. I really fed up of my life. I really destroyed a part of it. I really screwed it. I'm a failure.

At Monday. I went out with her. I was freaking excited during that day cause it will be the first (and also the last) time I go out with her. I remembered that time I was using everything she gave me. It was fun and I felt happy going out with her, we did every thing like what usually couples do. Go watch a movie, hold her hand during the movie. After that we went to a nearby restaurant to chat about stuff. While. Batting suddenly a message came out from her phone. " Is william going? " that message was sent by a friend of hers. She is my previous crush last year which i only treat her as a friend now and she had an outing to go to sunway with her friends and she asked me, my gf and my close friend to go. I asked her should I attend this outing. I also told her that my close friend going. I think because of that she sent her a message to her friend that I'm going. I was worried about that decision she done for me. I scare she will be jealous or even angry. But what she really thinks that she fear that I will love her again. After the decision was made. We continued to talk but inside my mind I'm thinking why did she wants me to go when she's not going. We chat till my mum came and pick me up. That day ended quite happy with a mind cracking question. " Why did she wants me to go".

Nothing really happened until Wednesday. Because her family was out for something. I went to her house to accompany her. I went to her house sitting there and accompany her. I planned to accompany her the whole day cause she ain't going to sunway which is at Thursday. But sadly my mum called me and asked me to return home. I stayed there for 3 hours and went home. Hoping that she will be alright with that decision she made. At night my close friend came to my house for a sleepover due to for quite some time he didnt come. He stayed till Saturday.

Thursday morning. I woke up and send her a sweet good morning message like I used to do. She replied me in a cold way. Then I was thinking whether is she sad or jealous. I went out with a puzzle on my head. We went there and met up with them with that puzzle still solving. We kinda had fun there. During that time I was thinking about how fun and cool my primary school life is. Till at night I was shocked that she, my ex crush is with my 5 year close friend. She confessed to him. During that time I got a weird feeling inside me I can't explain it. I sit there and thinking about why do I have that feeling.

Friday. The day where sadness covers the happiness just like the night sky cover up the beautiful evening sky. That day my parents asked me to break up with her after all the 3months of being together due to the change in me. I've changed. Like what alot of people said. Not in a good way but a bad way. I texted her and said about breaking up due to parents. I can't change it. They didn't agree about this. My studies dropped. My concentration level gone down to ground zero. We texted and agreed. After that I cried. Cried like mad. Thanks to my close friend who supported and cheering me up. After that I've calm down and sat down quietly like a run down brain damaged mule

Saturday. Nothing much happened till night. She asked me to be honest with her whether do I have the feel for my ex crush. I said yes since is only the feel but not loving her. Her mood went down and I went to sleep due to fed up about my destiny.

Today. I sent her a good morning message and I said I'm going out. So she said when I'm at home only she find me. Then when I'm at home. She called and we chatted. We chat till she said. William I think you must grow up. When she said that. It really reminds me of my late grandfather saying to me that I'll grow up to be a good man with a good and happy family. She even told me after 1 month she would like o see changes. I will try and change for that.

What I mentioned from above I think you guys can't feel what I felt. It's ok. No one can feel this pain.

Now the message to my ex crush.

I hope you will treat him good and not to play with his feelings in order to do some shitty things. He's a good man. I might not know him like you do. But what I know about him is I treat his as my very own brother. He is handsome, tall, and smarter than me by alot. And even funnier than me. Treat him good.

William, signing out